I once heard an amazing spiritual teacher say that when someone is in reaction mode, i.e., anger, upset, blame, etc., they deserve more love, not less. This resonated throughout every cell of my being so much so, that I launched into my own private campaign of blasting love to those who needed more love, not less.
When I was in my 20’s and experiencing tremendous emotional pain, I hated myself and tore myself into shreds. I couldn’t face or feel my pain, so, for a two year period, I drank and drugged everyday in hopes to numb my agony. What I didn’t realize, however, was how much pain I was causing those who loved me. I blamed my parents for my woes and stopped talking to them for years. I left my friends in the dust while licking my wounds in my own private hell.
It wasn’t until I launched into my own journey of self exploration that I realized what I was doing to my family and friends. I was no longer the victim but the victimizer. It took many years of people loving me until I was finally able to love myself, like I did when I was a young child. Ever since then, I’ve been on a love mission, blasting those who need it.
When I work with someone, I tell myself, “I will love you madly until you can love yourself just as madly.” The most amazing moments in my life are when I hear those magical words from my beloved clients, “Tamara, I can finally say that I love and respect myself.” Wow! Nothing brings me more joy and bliss.
Let’s face it, 2014 has been a very painful and difficult year for so many. There were tons of changes and endings: loss of loved ones, jobs, relationships, finances, etc. As a client told me yesterday, “2014 sucked!”
Therefore, as this year comes to a close, I want to blast you all with so much love, because you deserve more, not less. And, please trust me when I say that 2015 is going to be much more of an abundant year, one of healing and beginnings.
I’m not a religious person, but this prayer is woven into my morning meditation practice. Everyday, as I recite these amazing words, tears fall down my face as I feel the tremendous energy of love fill my heart. It’s this love in my heart that I blast out to you everyday and will continue to do so for as long as I live.
- Lord, make me an instrument of Your peace;
Where there is hatred, let me sow love;
Where there is injury, pardon;
Where there is discord, harmony;
Where there is error, truth;
Where there is doubt, faith;
Where there is despair, hope;
Where there is darkness, light;
And where there is sadness, joy.
O Divine Master, Grant that I may not so much seek
To be consoled as to console;
To be understood as to understand;
To be loved as to love.
For it is in giving that we receive;
It is in pardoning that we are pardoned;
And it is in dying that we are born to eternal life.
My New Year’s Resolution:To my wonderful readers, I happily blast you with love, especially when you’re in pain. I am blessed to have you in my life and thank you for the tremendous gift of letting my love into your heart. You are certainly in mine.
Goodbye 2014! We’re sending you off with love….